I haven’t been on in awhile, but now that I am.. I need to rant.
My friend has just come out about how she makes herself throw up, and how she’s depressed all the time. She’s getting SO much special attention. I’m depressed too right now, and I have been in my past too. The thing is.. NEVER did I take time off of work, never did I get that kind of attention the kind I needed. Also It’s just like.. she’s THINNER than me.. and her constant moaning about how she feels like she’s going to vomit is pissing me off.
I KNOW it’s a serious thing, I know this because I stopped eating once, not the same as vomiting but still.. Either way.. it’s just so frustrating. She’s ten times thinner than me, and I have to listen to this. It makes me feel WORSE about myself, not to mention it’s also a trigger for me. I told her I accidently cut myself, just playing around, i didn’t think it would show up, and it did… And then she goes and cuts herself. She NEVER does that. It just seriously.. UGH.
What hurts the most is, I’m now officially one of the people who’s kept her strong. So there’s this pressure within me now. When I’m upset, or mad… I usually show it.. and it’s hard for me to hide it. I HAVE to hide it now. Regardless. It SUCKS. I guess it’s a good thing that I haven’t seen her in a month then. :/
Sorry to sound rude, just my thoughts.